equal

Here I am, again… Like everyone I sit, I stand, I walk, I work, I love, I breathe, I rest, I stress, I hurt… and I’m not here to complain nor minimize anyone else’s struggles. I’m not here to compare, I’m just here to share a voice and maybe through my expression there will be a commonality that we share. As much as there is success, there is an equal amount of failures, and through my failures birth most of my successes. And that goes the same for love… the amount of loved gained equals the amount of love lost. But how does the human heart heal when it’s been through so many failures and so many heartbreaks? I have moved on from my past but it’s difficult not to look in the rearview. There are scars, deep, painful scars… and those scars have turned into wisdom, but have left a heart that was once strong, very fragile. For everything I have gained I have given something in return, is this the rhythm of life? A give and take, a constant sacrifice? It’s easy to give up something less of value for the gain of something greater… it’s very difficult to sacrifice something that is of equal value. How could we discern what is best for us, the former or the latter? Is the grass ever greener or is it always green? I am baffled with the questions of life and the patterns of human emotions. Will I ever make sense of things or will I always be a part of this push and pull, give and take world? Is it true that…”It’s better than to love and have lost, than to never have loved at all…?” I like to think it as, I will love better because it’s not love lost but love remembered, love experienced. And for the people who have never loved at all… will not understand the meaning of loss or gain, or simply love.

…fading

-ml