reason

Things happen for a reason… and sometimes for such a reason I don’t understand or care to. But what happens when things don’t turn out the way it was planned to? Is that a telltale sign for you to move on and never look back or do you proceed to fight for what you believe was suppose to happen? To be honest, I am not a patient person… so to wait around for “reason” is at times, beyond me. Some people might say I’m spoiled, I say I just fight for what I want, what I believe in. Sometimes it backfires and I get into a bad situation with no easy exit. Other times, there are rewards to putting up a fight. (And I want to add that you have to be able to discern the situation to know when to say when and know when to move forward) I have always followed my heart, and that I am afraid of because it leaves me wide open… now even more vulnerable, susceptible for another wound. Can this be avoided? Probably not… I’m now more vigilant and take heed to any warning signs that my heart might be in jeopardy again. But… how does a person fight without heart? How does anyone do anything without heart? I rest on logic as much as the next person, I can rationalize, think myself to death… and I do. So now the stain of misery that had been caused to my heart has given my mind the wisdom to always think before I enter any new situation. Oh the days of young… Someone once told me, “I wasn’t born this way, this is how someone made me.” It’s very true… we were never born to be cautious; we were born to live and express freely. It’s unfortunate that people, although have the power to love, have the same power to hurt. So many souls are walking around heartless… And how do we fix a heart that’s not there? I have made many bad choices in my life, and those choices have lead me to go in a different direction. Where I am going, no one knows… I do know: Things happen for a reason.

I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be…

-ml